Be Yourself! Learning to love who you are. (My Youtube channel)

Hey guys!
This is just a quick short post!

I recently got myself a good quality camera to be able to take good pictures for the blog and to better my youtube channel. I'm still learning but this is my first video. Make sure to check it out. Subscribe, like and comment.

Thanks for the support in advance. ;)

Perfect Imperfections- It's okay to be 'Messed up'

Hey Guys,

Happy belated valentines day...I hope you had a great time, I know I certainly did. But in the spirit of relationships, it got me thinking.

There's a certain someone I was seeing and when I was getting to know them, I kept finding out all these things about them and their past and I remember my first thought being 'Damn, they've got a lot of baggage, can I handle that?' And it did genuinely occur to me that maybe I was better off without this person;s drama.

Then I took a step back and thought but wait a minute..I'm not perfect myself! I have a past, especially ones that make me put up walls and guards and push people away even when their intentions are good. I have attitudes and behaviours that make it hard to get to me. If someone can look past all of my 'baggage' and willing make an attempt to get to know me, who am I to write someone off because of theirs.

Basically, no one is perfect, no one comes into our lives free from strings of past attachments, or emotional drama or problems. Everyone has some issues they;re dealing with, granted some people more than others and maybe some people know how to hide it more than others. Nevertheless the fact that someone has baggage doesn't mean your relationship need be any less amazing. Sometimes broken pieces can fit perfectly.

Maybe you're that someone that person needs, the ray of sunshine in their otherwise dreary life, maybe the both of you coming together can lift some of the baggage from them and make their lives happier and freer. The point is you never know until you look past your judgemental attitude and give them a chance.

The next time you're tempted to say 'They've got too much baggage, think to yourself, Am I really perfect myself?

After all We;re all a little messed up...That's the joy of life. If we were all perfect and there was nothing wrong with us, life would be a whole lot easier but way more boring. It;s the messed up part of us that makes life more interesting

and fulfilling.

Modelling Scams! Beware!

Guess who's back??

Hey Guys, so yes it has been a while, and I know this post won't be relevant to all of you but if  you have any sisters, girlfriends, friends who are or trying to get into modelling, this may be useful for them.

Basically, I have been the victim of unlimited, uncountable instances of this trend. The thing is I'm just about 5,7 and I have the kind of body shape which although draws plenty attention in the club is not exactly what the modelling world would call perfect. Basically I'm not tall and slim, so I should have known becoming a model would not be easy but in my naive mind when they told me I was gorgeous and this and that, I let myself believe the lies and that is all they are...Lies!

There are now 'modelling agencies' everywhere who will post an ad on gumtree, the internet, or even have websites where you send in a picture of you and they call you telling you you're everything they want and they will get you plenty of jobs. Sounds great right? No, they tell you they have so many jobs lined up only for them to tell you  you just need a portfolio first. Magically they always have their own personal photographer that YOU have to use because they never trust anybody else. Long story short, you go for some crappy photo-shoot, you pay over money and you never hear from them again.

I have been subject to so many of these, I feel so ashamed to even tell you how much, having spent over £1200. All I ended up with was a bunch of pictures that each new 'agency' would say is not professional enough. 

1. You never need to pay to join a reputable modelling agency. If you have to pay, think twice.

2. It is more likely that modelling agencies will discover you themselves, if you had to send your picture in to some dodgy website, think twice.

3. scope the environment when you go in...if it looks unprofessional and it's just 2 or 3 people in a warehouse office, think would a reputable agency capable of getting me loads of work have such a crap office. 

4. Portfolio is not built in a day, all you need are some good natural head shots and poses to sell yourself. Portfolios are supposed to show your versatility, this wont be portrayed through just one shoot.

Basically just be careful, if someone is offering you something which seems to good to be true, chances are it is actually too good to be true.  
There are so many of these scam agencies in London especially but also in Manchester, feel free to hit me up, I'll gladly give you their names. 
Better to be rejected from a reputable company than swindled by these fortune hunting scammers.



 I put in some of the pictures I ended up in various photoshoots, they were never good enough and I always had to take some new ones.

Short hair on a Round face!

Hey Guys!

So you know the new year is always here so I was exploring and thinking of new ways to have my hair. The thing is I have a pretty round face (at least I think so) with a very wide smile so I've always stuck to the conventional hair past my shoulders, thick full hair kinda thing but just this week, I was in between hair styles and my mama suggested I try a pixie cut, I was like are you kidding? (I didn't actually say that to my African mum) My face is too round, I'd have to pout permanently to look decent but I tried it anyway and was pleasantly surprised. I got so much compliments and I think it really suits me. I'm thinking of making it my permanent hairstyle.

I guess it just goes to show that even if you're not completely sure on something or doubting if it'll work, give it a go and you never know, you may be pleasantly surprised like I was.

 Me with normal hair

too scared to smile incase it doesn't bang!

Which do you prefer? Do you think it suits my face? Or am I just decieving myself?

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Weight Loss journey!

Hey Guys!

So I just finished an intense work out session with my flatmate and I am feeling soooo good! Never realised how good exercise actually makes you feel. When you're doing it, it feels like the world would end anytime soon, but as soon as you're done,you just feel happy that you're healthier and proud of yourself that you've achieved so much.

I've been meaning to get right for a while in terms of my health and fitness but I've just been too lazy so when my flatmate burst in and announced she wanted to get fit in 6 weeks, I thought why not, let me use this opportunity. Now I have the type of body that unless you look closely, it looks on point, behind closed doors, only I know what's really going on but by embarking on this journey I'm hoping to make my body look good in public and in private.

Of course this means fixing my diet as well! For those who know me they know I am literally the queen of chocolate, like I consume immense amounts of chocolate in one sitting and by one sitting I mean several large packets a day, but today I was able to control myself and didn't buy a single chocolate(boy the struggle was real, trust me!!) but it made me feel proud of myself. (I ended up buying do-nuts to substitute the sugar rush but shhh no one needs to know that.)

So basically this post is to make sure I'm accountable to someone and hopefully guilt trip me into sticking to this journey. If I give up after a few days I may just delete this post and pretend this never happened lol. Feel free to start the journey with me and I hope to be posting pictures, recipes, and progress throughout the phase.

In the meantime, here are some links to some of my favourite work out videos:

1. Tae Bo is actually amazing, like seriously, this guy does not play about. He throws you in the deep end and expects you to swim!! Fast!! But if you're resilient you will love the results.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVwv0bUEJpE

2. Only just came across this today and I am soo in love with it. It's a 2 part dance routine. One african themed and one carribean themed. I found myself sweating by the bucket but yet having fun. I definitely reccomend this if you are a beginner and if you're a good dancer you will love it even more.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pq7IDD0Ye1Y

3. Everybody loves some Zumba!! This put a smile on my face and got me me working up a sweat.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-RMdXvs6bM